by Oto | Dec 23, 2011 | Poetry
I am my worst enemy
My mind wanders far and wide
Most days this is good
But some nights, it turns against me
And the faces of the ones I love
Become the masks of the demons that torment me
I was never good with unconditional love
I understand the concept
Just don’t believe it
So I try my best not to need it
Same way deep inside
I trust no one
Not even me
Because I know what I really am
And I’m not that good
So how can I believe?
That you truly love me
That you will never hurt me
When I know
Inevitably I will
by Oto | Oct 27, 2010 | Mental Health, Musings, Poetry

On days like this…
Depression is my constant companion
Wrapping its arms around my heart
Sinking its teeth into my soul
Because walking down the highway
I was tripped by an Aedi*
Broken by Efil*
Possessed by a Maerd*
Led through a bush
Still falling down the rabbit hole
It’s bottom is never known
This is what it feels like to be alone
(*read backwards)
by Oto | Oct 22, 2010 | Musings, Poetry

I am
Pure essence
True force
The collision of a thousand suns
Endless bursts of light
I am
The eternal
The true
Never made
Only revealed
Manifested in the
Middle of space
And time
I am
Echoes of silence
Fragments of a past
Wrappings of the present
Memories of a future
I am
The beginning
Spark of the first match
Dawn of the first light
Night fades
Welcome to the new age
I am
Beyond gender
Beyond age
Beyond place
Beyond race
Wisdom of a sage
I have no face
I am
Him
I am
Her
I am
Them
I am
We
I am
You
I am
Me
Through our veins
Course a common blood
Cause when skin is broken
We don’t bleed red
We bleed love
Love for the art
Love for the sport
Love of the game
Love that has brought
Us thus far
After all is said and done
We remain
Ten thousand hours later
We on top of the chain
And today
We stand as Kings
And Queens of a future
Pioneers of a movement
Nah, beyond moving
We are not revoluting
But this is a revolution
After the music stops
And the lights fade
Fast beating hearts and pain remains
Thank God for limbs
Despite the strain
I am night
I am day
I am sun
I am rain
My passion is fixed
My shine is legit
got a pep in my step
so hip in my hop
10 000 strong I walk
I am Strictly Hiphop
by Oto | Oct 22, 2010 | Poetry

From the ashes
Of a faded past
I rise
Strong and true
Right and bright
The future has begun…
So far have I come
My years before like crumbled mud
Washed away never to return
I stand
Brilliant and shining
Like the noonday sun
I am
Never before seen
The birth of insane dreams
My destiny waits
The impossible does not exist
I know no limits
Fear is deceased
Divinely connected
Divinely transformed
Metamorphosis continues
Till unto God image I conform
I am blessed
I am favoured
I am King
I am Legend
Redefinition
Of every record
Show me what was done
By me it will be undone
Success is my name
Excellent is my spirit
Fortune in my veins
I am Infinite
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